Doing a distance-based PhD

I live in Berlin, Germany, and completed my PhD via distance-learning. I am happy to chat with anyone who is considering this. It is not for everyone, but for many provides the necessary flexibility (and for some it is the only option). I wrote about my experiences in a couple of guest blogs recently (linked below). But here is a picture of me at graduation in-person, on campus, wearing the magical hat!!

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Changing fields and gaining independence

I’ve been meaning to write about my experiences as a molecular biologist in academic science for some time, and one day I might. However, despite now tackling questions that truly inspire me, I am not quite finished processing my failure to gain the independence I strived towards for so many years. My plant science career ended in a mental breakdown, directly related to the toxic academic culture and a system that allows individuals to be used and abused. Yet here I am doing another PhD. But this time it is different!

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Neurodiversity Imposter

I feel like an imposter in many areas of my life, but the most interesting is how I feel with respect to the neurodiversity community. I am a child of the 1970s, and when my mum tried to figure out what was ‘wrong’ with me she was told I was just ‘highly-strung’ or, regarding my meltdowns, that I’d ‘grow out of them’. I never did!

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Competition versus Care

Something I am constantly struggling with is the balance between competition and care. I enjoy research and writing, and if I am to ever to land my dream job of a professorship (or permanent academic post) I recognise the need to publish and take credit for leading or collaborating in various activities. I choose to focus on doing what I feel is worthwhile first and foremost, rather than building a CV for myself.

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Wellbeing & Mental Health in Academia

It is important not to compare yourself to carefully curated personas. Professional profiles and CVs are not the place to disclose weaknesses, failures, mistakes, or illnesses. However, these are elements of real life and we should not be ashamed of them. We are all human and imperfect. Mental illness in particular is stigmatised, and although attitudes are changing for the better, the damaging and unforgiving culture of perfectionism persists.

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Don’t take it personally

I shared this in a private group at the beginning of term, but I think it is too important to forget. It is something I have to keep reminding myself.

To anyone who needs to hear this: your essay is not YOU. Neither is it a reflection of your self-worth or your potential to write something much better. A grade is simply a measure of the standard you are currently writing at. Nothing more. It says nothing about your potential to write at a much higher standard. Some students will start the MA already able to write at distinction level, while others have a way to go and many obstacles in their path. Remember that and focus on your own journey. Use feedback to improve current and future pieces of work, and never take criticism of your work personally. Even the best writers sometimes can produce poor quality work, and nothing is ever beyond improvement. You will be emotionally and professionally invested in the success of an essay or manuscript, but it is still important not to view its success or failure as an extension of yourself.

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You are more than a grade!

The current A-level result fiasco in the UK is disgusting. It is especially hard for those who are not in a financial position to simply retake them next year. Given the current job market, postponing university for many would mean either sponging of parents or claiming welfare. Having said that, in principle there is no reason why a person needs to go to university at 18. Someone who starts a course at age 25 still has a long life ahead of them to succeed in their chosen profession. However, that should be their choice, not a choice that was taken away by an unfair grade. Yet even a fair grade (one that accurately record the standard obtained) should not be viewed as a life sentence or an measure of intelligence. You could still reach the desired standard.

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